Waiting for a dream
to take me away.
Insomnia, can never sleep.
So I induce and fade.
No dreams; just heavy; peaceful; black; abyss.
The only moments I have become serene,
is when the needle lay
Into my skin; peircing my veins; push back blood; rapid seep.
Every nodding moment; so jaded.
Submission; I let my heroin caress
the pain into bittersweet
numbness.
I close my eyes
and take off.
Forget the chronic hurt
that beats me in defeat.
With every moment I miss
I buried with lies; my delusional demise.
Yet when she gets ready to leave; to take off;-
anxiety and misery alert.
Suffering through the insanity,
the struggle is well-known.
Wanting so badly to change it
but do not know where to start.
So I just keep it in the back of my head.
Unaware of what it is doing to me.
Where my better half has thrown
the lesser part of me; garbage pit.
It is time for you and I to part; shattered heart.
A proper goodbye; I pulled her into my arms and into my bed.
Butterflies, my...