It's hard to believe even for me the things that I've done,
Like im a thief committed robbery with a fully loaded gun,
Swept you off of your feet then dropped you down on your knees and gave you no chance to run,
Got too deep you couldn't just leave even after I murdered all of your trust.
Left you crushed and I know that itself is inexcusable,
You tried to help but I wasn't myself to the point I was almost delusional,
After I fell and climbed out of hell the love was no longer mutual,
Even after I change and better my ways both you and your family will never think I'm suitable.
Regardless of that fact I will never go back to act that I acted,
Detach from that extract all the bad and subtracted it,
Still difficult to actually laugh after I destroyed all that I had and let it turn to ashes,
Hard to let go of the past when I see where I am and know your all out of one more chances.
Hurt you so bad that you can easily match up and get onto another man's matress,
I know its cuz of what I've done that you wanna run and don't care who you have romance with,
And I'm here like damn is this really god's plan to see our rocketship and make sure that it crashes,
To see our paradise and turn it too a parasite just to learn not to take anything for granted.
That concept I've been grasping miss the days we were always laughing,
Miss the days we were actually happy but these days I don't know if your just acting,
I feel our love subtracting our souls detaching,
You wanna let go, I wanna grow old with you and our family.
Maybe that's too much to be asking especially when it might be something you no longer want,
Hard when you look in the past and only see broken glass memories that just haunt,
Easier too look for someone else hoping they'll help make the pain stop,
Or maybe they will be better then me not really that hard too top.
I'd rather you be on top rockin them hips cus I know that's the way to hit the right spot,
Forever and on imma give you all that I got,
And if you tell me too quit I'm sorry but that's one thing I will not.
Cus I know one thing is for certain I am determined too show you what you're worth is,
Still get butterfly like nervous whenever I see you in person,
Working to feel like I'm fulfilling my purpose trying not to overexert cus i know that your still hurting
Never have I been wordless still no easy way to word it closest thing I can say is your perfect.
Both steady working and carful of the choices we choose,
That love knot is still crisscrossed but very loose,
I wanna give it space and let you know the change and won't give one more excuse,
Battle with my heart and my mind I know I just gotta give it time but the...