My name fades in evanescence.
I run through recollections without peers,
Reality disintegrates as it appears to be.
Fantasy engraved horizon blends with speed,
Another shift to this paradigms decrees.

Suicidal tears stream from cavernous holes of my soul,
Areas tender and mostly unseen.
Homicidal debates attempt to take control,
Tends to the destruction of any grasp left on the serene.

Choking on the contents of a chalice filled with fear.
Clutching my heart from instincts picking up an approaching terror.
Seperation from the basic constituents of what grounds me.
Clashing with a new experience debating if I live in error.

Devestation to serenity takes my essence insistently.
Breath escapes from me entirely, suffocating for clarity.
Confinement to a repetition of torment,
Challenges me, Exhausting just to be free.
A paradox enticing my innate curiosity.

Conflicted forms of deduction tear me completely down,
Revelations carved into my vulnerable skeleton.
Disconnected from concepts common to humanity.
Divinities ruminations reinstate the severed relations.
I feel as though the universe embraced my decimation.

Angels rest while witnesses of my unrest.
A miraculous atonement is all that’s left.
A few more moments to save myself from damnation.
To the evil inside, I loathe its etification.
Will I spend eternity in heaven?
I did my best to survive this surreal land until then,
It will take an eternity to reach God’s hands.

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