it started when we first met
I never knew what true love met
the whole time felt like
I was super stoned
I felt like I was alone
but nothing like I do now
cause no one’s around
an I’m alone in the dark
I guess that’s why they say
that’s where it all starts
long stares an
wrong dreams
what would I have thought
you still loved me
all along I’ve got the monkey on my back
what would it be if you walked a mikes in my shoes
seen the things my eyes saw
at first it was lust
all you wanted was for me to trust you
I know many times I acted like I was blind
the whole time thinking you believing me lyin
you took your turn on a spiritual eloap
I stop an thought when my time comes
wouldn’t it be funny if I was the 1 who who always had a mystery would you still love me
even if I didn’t love me. how would it be
for so long that
all the times we
made long passionate
love would be gone.
that monkey on my back
he got that laugh that day.
I keep telling myself
if I keep acting like I don’t care
would you my husband Samuel
stay or would he’d go somewhere.
it was all a bad dream
that monkey showed up again
every fucking time
I’d miss your touch
thsy monkey he’s there
looks he’s laughing at me
he thinks it’s so
funny cause
I’m the fuckin dummy
what else was new
that stupid
fucking monkey would
make it seem
that the only
reason you said
you loved me
was an id
think it’s fake
you told me
I was your soulmate
who would’ve knew
that monkey was glue
an he made it
seem to good
to be true an
I was in a dream
that day the
doctor took that
monkey from me
an eventually
you see that
stupid fuckin monkey
walk past you
the little words
I heard was
he don’t want
you he wants
her but she’s
so old
an nasty looking
let her know
she can never
be me
that monkey
hopped on her
back that day
now it’s her
time to get
ready to learn
who the fuck
I was gonna do
cause
I got pissed
off at you
now I thought
I’d hurt you
but what the fuck
just my luck
I’d tried too
do me
cause what I read
just kept playing
in my head
but we both know
there others
who would try to
help me
understand 1 thing
an I’d beg
for 3 days
losing my sanity
an now that monkey
said fuck me
an I went down
a fucked up road
an that I’d be so alone
just to feel your touch
stayed on my mind
who knew I’d cry over
a millón times
wanting to rewind
the time
that I would
take to fix
everything that
I fuvked up.
but you told me
No this time
an that your
not mine
but what I
would do
just to be
next to you
I won’t fuck up
no more.
but you just
keep calling
me a slut
I’m going thru
something’s mentally
but that’s
when I need
you the most
an you just
leave laughing
at me an telling
me how much
I was a
fuckin whore
hurting me
even more then before
I just wanted
to hurt you
cause that’s what
you did to me
but now I’m alone
with no where
to go.
so now
im all fucked up
an I don’t
know what too
do cause all
I wanted was to
be wit you
maybe I should
just go kill myself
nobody would
even notice
when I’m gone
cause everyone’s
just gonna move on
but not me cause
I can’t be found
this will be
the last time
that I ask you
if you say no again
I will just go away.
with nothing
else to say
but I fucked up
an what I
would do just
feel your touch
because I know
my love for you
will never go away.

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