"Forgive me Father, I've sinned..."

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I've literally lost count of how many times I've come into your presence Lord acting like I need you to free me of my sins although I'd be leaning and pulling back, having a possessive, selfishly-tight grip on them;
Proof I'm so in love with and not yet ready to let go and part ways with all this filth.

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I'm not a perfect Christian -
I struggle with porn.

I'm never content with what God blessed me with -
I be outchea coveting all the good things that others own.

This is my sincere confession -
Hope you don't just see it as one good ole poem.

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I'm a Faker!

Manipulator!

I mostly post all the cooked up fake aspects of me on my feed and you eat it.

Alas! No wonder why this world is full of sicklings -
I'm one of those evil folks who sprinkle and lace your daily bread with rat poison.

Sometimes we blame the devil,

Sometimes we blame his demons.

But just because Satan can't afford a good lawyer and is not in good books with the jury does not give us the right to be reckless and do whatever we like knowing we'll just easily pin it on that poor guy in the end.

Some times, we men are evil -
More evil than the devil himself.

We continually keep sinning and falling short of God's Glory.

If for every moment we sinned we would literally fall short, most of us will be miserable looking dwarves right now.

But lo, we stand tall on our ever piling mountain of our stacked up iniquities, hiding behind the cross, dressed in pure linen although deep down we know we spotty as goats.

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"Forgive me Father, I've sinned..."

Just another watered down statement, said out of contempt...

Just another statement we use to seek audience of a God we repeatedly intentionally offend.

We outchea giving each other labels and calling each other names like repeated sex-offenders, notorious serial-killers when we ourselves are habitual sinners.

All day, everyday - the whole week;
We grieve the Holy Spirit then come Sunday, we make our dramatic entrance in His temple blasting in other tongues adding on to the collection of other sins on our list by misusing that gift of the Holy Spirit we so received.

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Just because He is a God of unfailing love, never ending mercies and second chances
Does not give us permit to go ahead and try our luck!

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Now we back in Eden where before the fall all was laid bare.

We are all habitual sinners:
Holy Spirit please come and do us the favor of beating that burning desire to sin out of each and every willing soul that will come across this script.

© Tadiwanashe Chikundi, 2024.

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