I am trying to convince my mind that it's not my fault, I did everything I could but I feel like the worst.
why?
I left her at her worst.
I meant fucking world to her- well that's what she used to say.

and I don't want anyone to feel sorry for me.
I am trying to act like it doesn't hurt,
like it never happened,
but the fact is thoughts about it can't leave my mind...