my therapist says i should love myself
so easy?
this comes after two weeks of me being an ass to her for fifty minutes at a time.

she says my mind is my biggest bully
and she is right
and i am wrong
but i am halfway across the city
my heart cant believe the good in me

i curse at my mom
but trust me
i curse at myself more
stupid
useless
worthless
fuck
fuck
fuck
i blame myself for any mistake someone makes
i am always the problem
and always the mess
and too much
and never good enough
never deserve...