#EmotionalDuality

" I'm feeling really good right now " i said to you, and you seem to believe these words I desperately say, wishing you knew their true meaning.

I don't tell you I'm not feeling good, because I can't ask you for help, but I wanted you to notice, i wanted you to look me right in the eyes and see that I'm feeling everything, except happiness... but you don't.

Unfortunately you can't read minds, but I wished so bad you could read mine.

When I tell you I'm feeling good, I'm slowly dying inside, helplessly hoping for someone (you) to notice that I'm not okay.

I'm sorry not telling you, it's really not my fault. The people, throughout my life, broke me, and I'm paying the price, I'm paying for everything that wasn't even my fault, I'm paying for something I never did, I'm suffering, and even though it's not okay to think this way, i wanted them to suffer.

I'm paying for something and even suffered from it...