I often try so hard but yet things fall apart the hurt in your word tears at me heart ..and I try to start bottling it up on side just trying to give you a pass but once your feet are on my grass and I'm upset at last I say things that blast you into a even darker place you wish you could eras your life all your life and memories cause as a kid and even know your sit-in here as a teenager thinking why do I try why do I cry I feel so empty inside losing my mind the nights are getting longer and colder and all I feel is so alone yeah honey I know how you feel. . . I was you once you wouldn't even believe some times that still me ..yeah I got someone that loves me but could I forgive myself for the mistakes I've made all the shit I've done to you with out even trying to I'm dying to see you in a better place my love ivr known you since you where a baby girl in dipers that don't change the love I've always had for you ...even tho I had to grow up fast cause our mom's health would never last ... darling I try to save you from the painful past but you saw it all and so did I you blocked it all away to servive I know kinda what that's like I had to turn my emotions off and become a cold fucked up kid then I woke the fuck up when my mom screamed and cried and called me crazy well maybe it's cause I saw you get beat while you where pregnant with my first sibling and we where both tariffed you saved him and broke your hip I stand there frozen in fear only a kid of four years you could never see these tears cause these years have bled me dry but when I do cry it's a river and I drown in it you gave me your truth and I committed a sin against you ...that's why I never think I'm good enough but the truth is I'm the one who's given up on myself I think the day I wake up and finally see the beauty in the horizon of pain I might stop thinking I'm just sitting here breathing wasting this life in vain wishing someone else could live out this prison secentnce all in vain traped in this body and this life I was born into that i can't escape cause even tho my mama dead I she made me promise one think keep these kids safe and fed and takin care of through the pain and the changes of the seasons in life letting them break as there learning and feeling the pain of life man how can you expect to not want an escape when...