Alot of people say that with darkness comes death,
But my world comes alive once the lights are turned off.
My thoughts start racing so fast that my head starts to spin.
All around me, the shadows start to come to life and surround me,
Making me feel alone in this world.
Having insomnia doesn't help.
Instead of sleeping and dreaming about things that bring me out of my depression,
I'm swinning in a pool filled with all my worries.
I start to feel tears run down my face as I think about taking my life.
Everyone say that it will get better and that I should just focus on the positive,
But that's hard to do when all you can think about for days is how you can end it all.
When all you can think of is what's the fastest way to do it.
Its gotten to the point where I'm afraid of staying awake cause if I do, I just have a breakdown and try to die .
My wrist is scarred with too many scars to count, all from my many times that I feel worthless.
Its hard to be positive in a world that's constantly trying to break you.
Its had to feel loved in a world where only one person cares about you.
So now, I sit here in the dark, thinking again, that no matter how hard I try, I will always be a worthless thing that doesn't deserve to live.