waking up is the hardest part of my day
i wake up and lay back down
i look down expecting a knife to be in my chest with how much i feel in this moment
the pain is like no other
his eyes are like a blade when mine meet his
my head starts pounding
my hands get sweaty
my legs start shaking
i love this feeling but hate it so much
i wake up thinking about every memory that’s why it’s so hard to get up
without him by my side no longer
i miss him
i want him
i hate him
oh how much i can’t stand to love him