I sunk deep into my warped mattress,
surrounding me like a goopy sludge.
The consistency was like swimming in a pool of melted fudge.
I can not escape no matter how much I struggle.
I'm reminded of all the times we used to cuddle.
Arms and legs interlocked and tangled
Now it's just me and my heart completely mangled.
I miss your body heat next to me.
Holding on tight like an accessory.
You swapped me out because I'm no longer in style.
Now someone else gets to kiss that beautiful smile.
I won't let jealousy get the best of me.
Even though I just did it accidentally.
You want someone to fight for their relationship but every day I take you on like a battleship.
I want you, I want us.
I want it to be like we once was.
I know things can't be the same but can't we at least relight the flame because it went out too soon.
I want more memories of me and you.
The ones I have are great, they're just hard for me to celebrate.
I don't eat and when I drink I dehydrate.
Wither away and evaporate because I have no appetite.
Depression, killing me inside like a parasite.
I can't see it but it's there.
Won't let me go, I'm trapped in its snare.
It's not fair
Please tell me you still care
I know this can all go away
If you just tell me that you want me to stay.