Why did you die?
Why did you give up?
Why didn't you stay?
Why was every day a hustle to party & play?

Why would you treat me as a Queen and then as less?
Why wasn't I good enough?
Why did you give me sedatives?
Why didn't you confess your secrets?
Why would you hide secrets that made you a mess.?

Your secrets made you sick so you were running from yourself . I keep thinking what more could I have done?
I could have put my foot down, but you would have run...

I cleaned up the mess every time you went to jail, even literally on that tragic day. I cleaned all the fluids on the bed that your body lets go when you die, and our home smelled like death...
Why didn't you wait for my call?
Why were there a whores panties on the floor size small?

No matter what you did, I love you unconditionally still on this day .
I forgive you for everything you did to me.
I forgive you for abusing me...

You taught me so much about life, and you protected me.
You'd stay up at night to watch me so I didn't hurt myself when I was sleep walking.
Why would you leave me alone on this cruel earth where people prey on me, and use me?
Please be my angel and guide me on this cruel earth..all I keep asking myself is
Why wasn't it me...you saved my life to die yourself and it's killing me.

Why did you die?


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