I don't know who you are.
I can't rember the whole of you.
but you stalk me at night, and you know when I'm alone.
I see you're eyes staring back at me In the mirror.
you're so distant, but you're present.

"You know me well.
when you feel the warmth, I can tell you know, that I'm there.
we're no different you and I.
I don't stare at you, I stare through you.
you pretend I'm not in the room, but everyone else doesn't.
what do you do when you choose to ignore me? you still need me"

YOU'RE not real, you never were!

"I've always been there, protecting you.
YOU!
You're the one who's not real!
You destroy your life, not me.
Accept it, you know its true."

How did you protect me?
by yelling?

"yes."

By hitting?

"yes."

By running?

"yes."

How is that protecting?

"You chose to be allow the hurt. I chose to fight. To fight back. To fight for you."

I didnt choose to hurt, they hurt me.

"And I Hurt them back."

Thats protecting?

"Yes! Its fighting! why are you denying me? why dont you accept me?"

Im not denying, im hurting. i
I didnt know who you were, I dint know you felt the same pain. I do accept you.
But we hurt others, with my fear and your rage. I see you, you are me. The only me that fought,
as a child,
as a teen,
as a young adult,
and now.
take my hand and walk with me. let's move foward.

"you've changed, you're still afraid, you still hurt. But you're fighting. fighting for me, fighting for our future. you are me, and I you. Ill take youre hand and walk with you, take me out of the past, let's go."

Let's go.

© Whin21