#WritcoPoemPrompt2
In the end it was just me and my thoughts,
A painful trap, long after you were gone, I couldn't escape, no matter how long time went on.

I couldn't help myself, I became lost in an unknown world, of what why, and what if.

For the longest time, I blamed myself, bc I wasn't enough, I wanted to be your everything, your only, and number one.

I loved you, far more than you, nor than this world will ever know, I needed you, but you wanted better, and more.

I was in it for the long haul, forever, death till we part, through sickness and heath.

I was there right by your side, through your dark day's, when you couldn't see the light.

I did everything I could to make your dark grey day's bright. I was there too hold you, while you cried.

when everyone around you gave up on you, had enough of all your wrong doings, and lies, guess who the last one standing,

Me, surprise, surprise, sadly you never realized. what you did, and put me through, made me see just what cruel things another human can do.

I couldn't help it, I knew I deserved better, but it was as if you were a drug, I was addicted to loving you, without you life didn't make sense.

the withdrawal, from coping without you was just always too intense. I couldn't bare the aces, and pain. without you I would go insane.

I watched you drink your life away, and walked through the storm, and went through hell, and back, always had your back.

right when you decided you wanted to change, and live a better, and sober life, get a job and do thing's right.

I was no longer needed for your escape route, or for your punching bag too take your anger out.

I became useless too you, so you walked away, I pleaded and begged for you too stay.

I knew I so badly needed to let go, but I kept holding on, I couldn't seem to completely let go, I had hope, one day you would just come home.

A dream I held into for way too long, the pain I experienced was no joke, I still will never know how I made it and coped.

So many years of unnecessary pain, I settled for, but I'm now stronger than ever before, I now adore, and love myself.

Something I had always failed at before, putting everyone else, even before myself, that doesn't happen anymore.

I've learned so much through our journey, I don't regret us, I just wish I would have faced reality sooner.

I forgive you, and what you put me through, and all the pain you caused, but one thing is I'll never forget the loss of you,

only if I would have known back then what I know now, life without you gave me strength, and pride and love for myself I had never realized I needed.

I often wonder if you ever think of me, and if you ever see the things you did to me, and if you have any regrets.

I have nothing bad to say. I only want to thank you for walking away, and wish you only the best for the rest of your days!!!

BY: Elizabeth Smith
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