Yeah, I have always dreamt to live a life
Free from anger and enmity
But I keep asking "what brought me here?"
"What really pitched me here".


A state of pain, deep in my flesh
A drive to stain and break in a flash
My mind can't hold or stand on it's own
Filled with so much anger, can't tell where it all started.


Emotionally torn apart like that of the pauper's cloth
With no possession to hold on in this heart of mine
So they say; I am broken
And I agree, because I am broken.


Can't tell where this flash of hatred keep coming from
My heart so ready to absorb what it brings
Put the pain together
My mind keeps telling me.


But see how rounded I have fallen in my tears
I need the word to take me through
Yes, that word to move me through
Pinned against that pole of hatred.


I can't take it anymore
Refuse to stand this anger in me
My heart created this pain from the beginning
A beast that seems hard to be tamed now.


Push me along the path of peace
Walk me through the river of solemnity
Hug me with the breast of love
Let me hear from you once again my love.


I now see where it all started
When I lost her to my greatest fear
He took her away from me
Death snatched my love from me.


But the word, my love can keep me from this anger
My broken heart can be mended once again
My fear can be crushed
With just the word my love.


I have fought to hear you speak
My struggles to hear your voice came to no approval
Just couldn't wait to hear you say "darling"
To quench this pain and anger in my heart.


This is the word I am waiting to hear from you to mend my heart
The heart shattered from the beginning
When he stole you away from me
Speak your love into me.


Heal me with the word
Speak joy to my heart my dear
For I am broken because of your death
Speak the word to make me whole again my love.

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