Gotta remember its okay,

its okay to want time for self,

I shouldnt feel guilty right?

the way this anxiety works im expecting someone to try to monopolize whats mine,

and it triggers fight or flight ,

to gaslight, manipulate, make me feel bad for enjoying my time alone,

like Christopher Columbus looking at a king with aspirations for his throne,

I can turn off my phone,

leave it alone,

and stay at home,

I owe no one an explanation for my relaxation,

because if they arent adding to it , then thats malicious taxation,

Ive stressed for long enough,

proven im strong enough,

to carry the burden of me, a culture and then some,

my rest ,respite , and time for relaxation has been well earned,

the time for stress is done









© jhamir Johnson