I don't care what I accepted in the past
I've been through so much bullshit I'd rather just pass
Idc if you knew me 6mos ago or the year before last
You likely wont recognize me if you seen me today
I've grown so much internally recently so sorry im not sorry but this gwen's here to stay
I finally love myself more now and i know that's okay.
Im making my mental heath a priority
I'm not accepting nothing less than I deserve
Go head and be dumb deny yourself my good energy
idc u can disappear go the fuck away
So like I stated once before idc im better off without ur fuckshit u gave
i promise you that the change is so great
its something to important to dismiss
what can i say i became so ashamed
i was becoming someone i hate im unwilling for one second to reminisce
Idc but that doesn't mean i hated with regret my past or the lifestyle i lived
Trust me the heavy sorrow i carried daily
watch it swallow up my brilliant essence
nothing but narcissistic sarcasm directed
towards me causing negativity in my subconscience
had me constantly in fight or flight mode
emotional injustice became so consistent
for instance
maybe my mind was under control for me to be thinking there weren't other options.
But now im mentally able to regulate my emotions and problems
spiritual awakening has my senses at the forefront
knocking down everything causing whatever is causing this blockage
while my focus is in recovery
i still gotta take charge before anyone i love could possibly lose control
inevitably lost ownership of they're only soul.
i can only give thanks to being much wiser
as i strive to aquire everything my heart desires




© Hnfgwen