I drowned.
The water was putrid,
dark, almost black,
the pond sucked me in.
nostrils full of water
then the mouth,
then the lungs.
The clothes were pulling
and what's worse,
I didn't want to emerse,
I wanted that all along.
I had thrown myself
at a certain point
I chose to do it.
Somebody was calling
I guess from outisde,
the sound was muffled
water in the ears,
but someone was calling.
maybe it was just my impression,
maybe I was the one shouting.
I never knew how to swim anyway,
I had thus abandoned myself to that vortex
that not even that voice would save me from myself

© khloè