rage ..the utter most out painful life I've faced they say it is not right to hate they say it's hard to love at all I've loved through abuse through pain through it all and now ..the greatest pain I feel is the fear that I won't be enough for a child I wished I had planned for ...I didn't think I could get pregnant and so I am . full of life wanting to move on from the pain of the past but with moving on comes it fazes if I could hold on for five years I'd probably be well off and happy but I worry way to much my past left me to feel everything is not what it seems and anything is to good to be true . against all challenges I'm here still however shattered from my last fall I've attempted to stand back up yet...