I know I'm f'ed up fo'sure and I'm not chasing a humble course
I cheat, lie, steal, wank, bang... and make ecstasy my god.
I'm accursed beyond curse, I keep going back on my words
Of staying Holy at all times, so sure He's tired of my remorse.
Was subject to thoughts on my mind, addiction an A course.
Struggled with depression, I was on the verge of an outburst.
My heart says return, my heart still says return
But It's stuck with my body which already is long gone.
The opportunity to make it right, got lost in life's tantrums
I don't know if He'll hear my cry cause I was His, now I'm mine
I've lost the confidence I had in us by ignoring His sanctions.
As I took a step with Him, I ensured I took two steps backwards
Aware there's consequences to my falls, I'm ready to receive all
I'll work to build a relationship where I could trust in His visions.
Every time I get afraid of the future cause if I die, I'd be lurched
Without the pleasure I've piled up, into the flames that burns hot.
How do I give a life I had taken when I gave it out at first?
How do I make Him my Father again, when I had made us equals?
Why do I have this Will? In my life they override His decisions
I want full control of my heart beat, to dance to tunes of your love.
I want to please you as long as I live, I ask your Spirit to help me
I want it back with you, I just want you back Dear Lord!

© Cogua