Trying to discover the unusual me
Who is trapped in a world of calculated love.
I stand before the mirror
But fail to see beyond my reflection
And the worth I own to myself.

Squeezed in between the love I give to humans.
And the hate they reciprocate
I failed to see what was inside me
Because of fear, fear of the unknown ,
While acknowledging others worth,
I failed to realize mine.

Why please others that care less about me.
And displease myself as well as my true friends.
Blindly following the crowds that barely noticed me.
Falling for honey coated tongues and,
Those little love showered upon me,
The love I never felt I deserved.

Today, I stand before the mirrors
And see beyond my pupils
As dark as the human heart,
My heart beat reminds me of,
the countless time I cherised the wrong one.

I see my palms and the lines in it
I remember my emotional scars
Caused by my naivety in cherishing ,
Those that cared less about me.
And displeasing my true friends.

Mouth reminding me of honey coated lies.
Ironically, I on my side,
it brings back the memories of the bitter taste of humanity.
Entwining the love and hate I see
And forgetting their true identities.

A mish-mash of life brought a darker shade of me.
I tried to recoup the love I had
But I'm still chained by my own hands.
Trapped by my conscience.

Pupils as dark as human heart
Lips as deceitful as human tongues.
© aloine-racheal