Thoughts!! scary, beautiful, Unbelievable thoughts
In my messed up, my not so sorry mind..
My downfall feels like my only choice,
Skipping beats and dancing in fear,
How wonderful my coping style?

Puffy eyes and dreamy night...
Deadly combination but only one is right....
Hiding perfectly in my mastermind..
Behind all this is an innocent quite.
Barely living and proudly dying inside.

Such a mess! I would like to say..
But how can I? when all is great..
Learned this in a hard way.
Never to show your weakest sight
The world will eat you alive.

Still hoping for some strength to come,
While laughing at myself to still trust,
Never learning from the previous suffering...
This is me at my worst ...
Keep going, keep going repeating this is not enough.
© Hadiya_Shaikh