sit here …. Missing you …
… There is so much sickness in us …
But ….
I need you …
…. I want you
… To have you
To be mine …
… A short time ago …
I showed up in town riding the rails
…. Living free … just being me …
I never thought I’d stop …
…. Freezing to death and starving …
Fucking off …walking with my hate …
… Your inspiration… motivated me to change my life …
A little more than a year …
… Now all I do is work …
Make a lot of money …
… I waste …
Waiting on my paychecks …
… while you sit in rehab …
…. ….. Detoxing
From me …
…. Your smile has faded so much ….
I love to hear your spirit …
…. Lifted again when you call ….
The happiness only you possess …
… sober…finding its way
Back into your soul …
… I miss you
But I’m scared I’ll just crawl right back in
… when you come home
…. I’ll be me .
I’ll ruin us …
… It’s in my poisoned heart…
It’s in my fucking bones …
…. I want to run away so bad …
I want to disappear …
…. I’ve committed to a life I can barely see …. …. …. Walking down these paths
… keeping you right next to me …
I watch you throw it all away
… My person is destructive … seductive …
Attractive enough you can’t help but feel this plague … this pain …
…. … what a fucking mess
Polar … opposition… argument … … the sex and intuitions…
Dragging you through hell …
…. …. I know I need you …
I know I love you …
I don’t want to let you go …
…. It’s like you’re another part of me …
My friend … my lover …
… My pal …
You’re the one that makes me happy …
… you’re the...