You didn’t know how bad it was?
You responded to the email I sent telling you that I wanted to talk because everything was going downhill,
Feels like you didn’t acknowledge it.

You watched me become distant,
Utterly quiet because I didn’t know what to do with myself.
I didn’t know how to ‘act’ or ‘be’,
I didn’t know whether to tell you or not after I saw you speak to someone else and not me.
You knew for just over four months, so do not try to sympathise.

You’d ask me how I’d be doing when I didn’t want you to,
And when you finally took note that I’d been wanting to speak, but hadn’t,
Because I didn’t want to bother you,
Because I saw you talking to someone else and not me,
I hope you finally realised that I was not okay.

You didn’t know how bad it was?
Do not tell me you didn’t know,
You knew for just over four months,
You knew I was not okay,
Yet when you found out you tried to sympathise.