I'm tired of living this life,
tired of living the lie.
Abandoned by my wife,
she's determined to watch me die.
after 22 years,
all the laughter,
all the tears,
no happily ever after.
I'm living on the edge.
my life is a disaster.
I'm already half way dead.
without her I see no future.
I'm stuck dwlling on the past.
she ripped my heart out, no sutures.
I don't know how much longer I can last.
she won't even talk to me.
and I dnt even know why.
I haven't done anything that I can see.
to make her want to destroy my life.
I'm living in constant pain,
I'd rather not see tomorrow.
My heart is battling with my brain.
wanting to end this constant sorrow.
She's everywhere I look.
she's all that I see.
I could write a book,
on all the bad things she's done to me.
Still I love her more than this whole world.
More than the moon and stars.
Thought she would always be my girl.
How could she have gone so far?
Till death do us part.
We promised to each other.
now it seems like we're oceans apart.
I hate that I can't not love her.
I'm about to break.
Had all that I can take.
there must be some mistake.
wonder if her love has always been fake.
All I know is, I can't take anymore sorrow.
does anyone have a heart I can borrow?
she killed mine and then went silent.
She's taken away my will to try.
just want to lay down and die.
tired of fighting the urge to cry.
Maybe it's time to say goodbye.
Maybe it's time to end it all.
There's not much further that I can fall.
and I don't know how much longer I can stall.
I'm sure she's watching me struggle and having a ball.
won't answer my messages or my calls.
She knows she's killing me, that's what she wants.
I doubt she ever loved me at all.




© James L. Babcock Jr.