I have learnt something about life in these 20 years of my existence on this land
Life is lived to the fullest by the people who are unorganised and unplanned

I have always been a systematic person who can never function without a plan
Who needs a detailed description of anything before hand

Being systemic and an organized person is a great feeling
it helps to make up a decision or an action
But i guess it's not the best when it comes to healing

Because healing is a messy process
Sometimes you feel wonderful and sometimes you just feel poccessed

I use to believe it would be very hard for me...