Ever wondered what it's like to be your own antagonist? It's a feeling of distress. An overwhelming feeling of disgust in oneself.

It's like you're in a room, the walls are closing in, you stare at objects, your mental capacity teaching you how to use them to save yourself, but you just do nothing but watch them close in, crushing you into toasts.

Toxicity.

You tell yourself, you need to do this, you want to do this, you have to achieve this. But then again you say, 'what do I think of myself? How the heck would I think of achieving such great lengths, there's a limit right in front of me, I cannot do anything'.

Self...