Don't leave me! I scream into the abys when my new friends become blind to me.

I feel so ignored when it feels like they can't see.

Leave me alone! Pulling away from affection when it matters the to a friend.

Do I want companionship, or do I want my social life to end?

What is one to do when their desires conflict so harshly?

The confusion circling around my skull. do I even know me?

Being pulled into desire by my legs, sinking into its sands

The cuts build up one after another, coating and coloring my hands

I feel so lonely, but I don't want my friends. What is wrong with me?

I want to be left alone to soak into my desires and live a simple life

Why can't I make up my mind? Why won't the thoughts let me be?

I know already she will never be my friend or my lover or my wife.

Do I hate her, or do I just want to see how beautiful she looks in fear?

Do I hate her, or do I want to see how pretty she is in pain and tears?
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