the first time we met she was getting us well
delivering a much needed fix of black
to the Drury hotel in chandler
where me and my cross dressing asshole friend
Notalie
were hanging out in a trashed hotel room
sick as shit.

she came in the door fast as a thief
she sized it up
talked about the fake checks she wanted to cash
and the payouts we'd get
looked me dead in the eyes
waiting for my reactions
then stood up and unbuttoned her tight jeans
and in a swift motion took them entirely off
as she slid into a big chair taking a needle
from her bra
she carefully inserted the thing
into her little thigh.

her underwear were lace and red.
ill never forget
she had a few small bruises on her winter white legs.
she hit,
she stood up
eyes closed in opiate bliss
looked into my hungry eyes
with her hungry eyes
licked her lips as she applied chapstick

and was gone before i could ask her for anything
with my last $50.

i then took my heart out of my chest
signed her name to it in thick black ink
as the big thing flung hot blood all over the room

"put it back now!" Notalie said "you get a crush on every girl"

I squeezed it back through the jagged knife cut i'd made in my chest,
this is no crush i thought.


© Edward Storm