Where did it ever occur to you that it hurt, for you to leave. To hear you were gone, and to hear their screams. Where was I, when you took your last breathe. When they buried you along with the memories I once had. Where did my emotions go, its as if they died alongside with you, ready to decay and crumble. I didnt believe it, how could this happen to me? One thing after another, but this is beyond me. How could you do this to me, why couldnt you have fought. Why couldnt you have lived to the very last day earth had. Why couldnt you have breathed the same air as I and lived just the same? My question is, How could you? How could you have done this to me. It wasnt your fault, yet I feel betrayed. I lost you, and it feels like Ive lost in life. Is that why they call it loss? Not because you lived and you no longer do, but because I lose a piece of me that gets decomsed with you? I wish you would come back, Please. I beg you and I will beg for more. I understand the concept of death, but I wish you would be the one to defy it no matter what. Tell me these things are just a sick joke. A twisted dream I couldnt wake up from, just shake me harder, surely Ill come up to rub my eyes and see yours. I want you and I miss you. All of you and more. You got to be kidding me, how much longer must I endure? I want to join you and end this misery of a thing we call life. You of all people should say its unfair, and I, can simply agree. No matter how much I tried, Ive kept it for thus long. Yet those undeserving get to lose it like if its such a grand prize they get to rub in my face and heart for so long. Let me win and subdue to the darkness, let me rest my eyes and so fourth. Let me breathe whats left of it, and leave the rest to those who need it more. This pain is called Grief, but even that word itself and many more cant describe it. I miss you. maybe then, those words can reach you farther than how far my heart yearns to extend itself to your reach. One can only wish. One can only dream.
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