NARC LOVE
09/2019

Called you crying
on the phone today
wish I could forget
the words you chose to say
don't know why I ever thought
it would go any other way
and it just keeps going on in my head
like an ipod that's stuck on replay

That's something from you
I feel will always stay the same
scars like that usually don't fade
I frantically search for an escape
time has shown me
nothing will ever change

Anything good is being chased away
every moment
of every single fucking day
loving you
brought to me the most pain
and the image you think you have after this all
is what you gain

Like wine on a white T-shirt
is how obvious of your kind of stain
I used to like things before that used to fool me
with the games you play
every lie you told me
is not my burden to pay

Unfortunate to know one day
you'll know how it felt in my shoes
with no choice but to suffer exactly the same
you already know this
judging by the way you carry yourself
trying to hide the shame
as you sit there over and over again insisting
I'm whom is to blame

A chapter in your life
that you won't be able to turn the page
until you know what you caused
every time you raged
how it feels to be damned near locked in a cage

Lived for so long searching and praying
for my chance to get away
anywhere else is more than okay
please God I just want to be safe

I can see it in your eyes how you would if you could brutally end my existence
as my life you take
you can't even hide it to be true
no matter how hard you fake
showing your true colors
for goodness sake
but that's just the typical
narcissistic type of way

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