I spent so many lonely nights wondering what you would look like,back when a gay woman was just a dy$e. I even feared entering church would end in the lords hand landing a strike,maybe worse, maybe someone would touch me with a hand and a curse. Kids today have no idea,they were raised with social media,parades celebrating pride,waving from their rainbow float ride,not even trying to hide, No LGBT they're the alphabet generation,QRST,trans and non binary. We had local news and stories of Matthew Shepherd,left for dead because society saw no worth. Just another homo,he probably was leading them on with sexual innuendo. He probably deserved what he got, no one even gave his life one thought. So many nights I prayed to make it go away,please lord I don't want to be gay. Lord I don't want to be lead astray,yet though I grew up with such an array,I just didn't see boys that way. Though I appreciate the male figure and a handsome man,still I dreamed about what my life would be or could be, what my wife would look like. Would she have auburn hair, skin of tan or maybe...