One thing I've realized is, your love will never compare or win against any kind of demon no matter how hard you try. It's a sick but yet addicting incomplete circle that anyone who is capable of loving the correct way, will never deserve the problems of that demon afraid of their own shadow let alone an unhealthy yet undying search for love. It's not your fault and believe me, everyone knows it except that dark shadow that's continuously trying to pull you down! Anything unhealthy is sadly an addiction we crave but in the end, it only taught and forced us how to be brave. Keep your head up baby girl, because a promise will be made to you each and every day, that everything will be alright, everything will be okay.