life was more fun before it happened,
I was happier even tho twas weird.
I'm now just another gloomy lazy girl
just like the others, I'm worser
more useless then them..

so now lemme be normal, lemme be useless, self centered, ordinary, predictable, not so cute or good, just like them crying behind everything, not so cheerful or optimistic shall I be.

I'm weird I tell myself to give and change myself,
but then the optimistic...