2023 was a Mountain, climbing it was hard. So i kept all the pain to myself for I miss seeing me come alive in a thousand different way then I impugn my character while tryna make sense of all this overwhelming year. What i did was insinuate myself ahead of me for i had high hopes that the view on top is worth it!

If only you knew what my mind is telling me to do. I've been trying so hard to survive, sometimes i think i wanna die, mostly because i feel so guilty 'cause who I am isn't enough and there are many things that I could change so slightly.

God why would I succumb to something so unlike me? I'm still breathing through wounds with their knee on my neck.

You may think my thoughts are worse than anything but frankly speaking, losing faith it's a lot to handle, not even allowing me to make my case, and having to regret my days of living with every fiber of my being.

I don't...