I wish I didn't care.
I wish I never agreed to this affair
All it left me was full of sadness
and nothing but despair.
I know now what I did wrong
when it came to you ,
I have to admit I was anything but strong.
You see I guess I must have been alone alittle too long.
For when you walked in my life,
You made me feel like together we belonged.
But you must have known all along, You never intended to stay for this long.
Tonight, I sit here wondering what I did wrong.
You continue to avoid my texts,
sure you reply with only one word,
it's absurd. I'm not sure what you heard or what even occured.
You use to call me almost every night , we would message each other, back and fourth till all hours of the night.
sometimes it was until the early morning light.
you always asked me to go over.
but I guess the calls did start to get slower, less and less.
but I never guessed,
that you and I would never progress together. You just stopped it altogether.
you said goodbye without a word. it feels like it's forever.
Bet right now, you must feel pretty clever. not a call or a message from you, whatsoever.
I wish I didn't care,
I wish for me it felt like whatever.
© Stephanie mh