Electrochemical signals fire off my brain,
In haywire I look around, for any escape
For one breathe
Either you maintain an infinite distance between our charges, or collide yourself within me
Your eyes' electric field
makes my velocity influctuate
where's the stable ground? where's my mind when I most need it
If we parted ways before,then can we count this moment as parturition,
a new beginning
my heart! cannot godamn stop itself
the gestations I have had, in my stomach for months
those stupid butterflies that you implanted
in the spur of just one moment,
and my once barren soul fertilized for our love as if I was always waiting
to be inseminated with your complimenting lies
If only, I could have never let the genesis of your thoughts overcrowd my brain's machinery
I'd be happy , it would be easier to be rid off your presence
I would've never have heart problems

Sometimes, I imagine myself to have acted like a sertoli cell ,
nurturing, growing and building you into a man, fighting all your battles myself (FSH), only for you to leave as soon as you felt completed
Somedays I feel like Leydig cells,
My goodness (androgens) never ever benefited me,
You only pulled me higher once, every month,
but every day I prayed that your words held just a little more importance

I thought once our octets will be filled,
you won't leave me
but like copper and chromium,
you ended up betraying my trust
Now I try to convert all these emotions
into poetry,
because looking for you to say something,
Never helps...



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