What is it?
What is it holding me back?
I can't sense or feel anything anymore the same way i used too
I can't feel the rushing flood through my veins
I can't sleep anymore the same way i used to, a sound sleep is far away for me
I close my eyes be consciously sleep for few hours. It isnt enough for me to run
I lost interest in running as i can barely move
Four walls feels safe, is it really safe
Because my mind see through the further and recall the past . What safety im looking for when i doubt the air im breathing in, i can't trust
As my trust got beaten up.
Love-- innocent --non -judgmental you can't be! says my past.
I can't focus on anything, as my mind says everything for what?
A simple task i do excel at, is hard for me to do .
I don't want to do anything
I don't want work
I don't want breathe
I wish to stop my mind and go to sleep as my thought runs that the only way to survive to shut things down
My breath
As im drowning in cold frozen lake
Does anyone see my tears froze before i sink
The cold that spread through my skin froze them along to piercing my heart does it ache or froze
I don't know
Im numb
As i freez i slip in my thirst
Warm hands around me a body the gives me warmth to stay alive and love to be awake and safety to fall asleep in the hands
A bitch want a boy to fuck???
Says the world!!
Is it all i need ? But i want to focus i want to work i want to be happy i want to love i want to feel emotions i want to feel a life
At least
I want sleep.
My need is far beyond sexual &emotional
I want a womb i can keep myself into the bubble.
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