I'm filled with guilt and regret. The things I've done I can't forget. The people I hurt over the years. I was the cause of so many tears. I did what I did, without remorse. No matter who I hurt, I continued the course. All that mattered was my next High. I take advantage, cheat and lie. Whatever it took not to be sick. No matter what happened I refused to kick. I took and I took until everything was gone. This is my life and it's full of wrong. So many times I refused to get well. I continued to live in my own personal hell. People want me to change, they wait and wait. maybe for me it's already it's too late. I'm gonna end up dieing or all alone. This is the only of life, that I've ever known.

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