I clasp my energy in orbits of activities
Exercise to remind myself, my heart can overspeed by other things too
Calling friends, I can smile again just fine
I don't need you
I study to not overthink about your day
what are you doing? How are you doing?
Are you well? How's your health?

does she ask you these questions and make you feel serene, and loved
Like mendels cross , do your traits form unique patterns?
Does she show you new phylums and classes of her own, do you marvel at it too?

I hostage my mind , running it through Kirchoff's rule
I conserve energy, never let my momentum get to you
I run around in loops, counting the potential difference, that's left inside me without your spirit

I make an equation of our futures with heinsberg's uncertainty principle,
there's no way we both can exist in the same location,
I'm the node, your velocity zips past me
You said, we'll last till infinity, but I guess you reached there first

Nowadays like a Chondrichthyes, I put my whole strength trying to not sink below,
you passed through my pectoral plates
My body, was just a delicacy to you
My heart was a desert,
My love was garbage, you threw it away
like nothing I did for you ever mattered

you left me questioning
how can someone be so damn cruel?
to someone, who still prays for you, before herself...


© nervous_system