I'M FEELING HEATED, RECKLESS, DEFEATED,

I'M STAYING STRESSED, DEPRESSED, AND SLIGHTLY OBSESSED,

I'M STRUGGLING WITHIN ME, FORGIVE ME, I CAN'T BREATHE,

I CAN'T THINK, I WON'T GROW, I CAN'T SPOT THE CULPRIT,

I'M STRANDED, INSIDE MYSELF, LONGING FOR A PLACE TO HIDE,

A HIDEAWAY, AWAY FROM IT ALL, A SMALL SPACE, NO ROOM TO CRAWL,

BECAUSE IF THERE'S NO ROOM FOR ME, THEN THERE'S NO WAY YOU CAN JOIN ME,

ID RATHER ME COMPLETELY CRAMPED UP, THEN HAVE YOU NEAR ME,

YOU INSIST, I RESIST, I ABANDON MY OWN WANTS OR NEEDS FOR YOU,

BUT WHEN I NEED YOU, YOUR NO PLACE TO BE FOUND,

IF I DIED RIGHT NOW, OR IF I WALKED OUT THE DOOR, YOU'D ONLY NOTICE BECAUSE YOU NEEDED SOME MORE,

CRYING DON'T HELP, SCREAMING GETS LOUDER,

BEGGING AND PLEASING AS I ATTEMPT TO MAKE YOU PROUDER,

NOTHING WITH A SOUL IS SAFE NEAR YOU, BECAUSE YOU'LL SWALLOW IT WHILE SMILING,

YOUR EVIL IS DISQUISED, AND BLINDS THE RIGHTOUS,

YOU REELECT THAT ON ME, MAKING ME SEEM LIKE THE FALOUS,

PRETEND YOUR THE VICTIM, SAY IT'S MY FAULT, THEN TORTURE ME A LITTLE MORE,

THINK YOU CAN BREAK ME, CALL ME OUT AGAIN, PUSH ME TO THE FLOOR,

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS, EARLY DAYS, FEEL MYSELF FADING,

AWFUL FEELING OF SILENCE, BECAUSE I'M NUMB AND HELPLESS, I'VE LET THIS GO ON TOO LONG,

DEFEATED, FRAGILE, STRONGER, HEATED,

NOBODY UNDERSTANDS HOW DEEP THIS IS SEEDED,

HOW FAR DOWN IT GOES, I DON'T KNOW EITHER, I'LL FIND OUT SOON, I'LL UPDATE YOU FROM THE ETHER,
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