I don't even want you anymore
or touch you like I used to,
send you my deepest love
to flow right through you.

I sabotaged my lifeline
by throwing it on the floor,
I can't even take myself
anymore.

I think you shouldn't ever
know how much i really knew,
It could make you feel
inside out of you,

oh the nerve
I ever had,
to accuse.

My feelings for you
just feel bitter now.
I wish I could tear you
completely out,
but i can't even
even if I knew how.

You were my forever
and I'll believe forever,
that forever isn't never
if I never say never.

But too bad
you had other tricks
up your sleeve,
you had other plans
and no room left
for a peace of trash
like me.

I was only ever gotten to
despite what you were told,
and by then you have
already turned
bitter and so cold.

Blinded by your silver friends
and your action figure dad,
all of you who's smothering still
you'll never know what you had.

Your oh so precious plate
there was never any room for me,
so now it will always be
too late.

© Sarah J Laird