You know, I tried
I did
But in the end it disintegrated
And nothing matters now
Nor did it then
But I'd like to think so
I tried
I guess that's what matters most
Not whether I succeeded or not
But that I tried

I don't write often anymore
Not because I can't, but won't
But because I shouldn't
I feel as though everything I write
Ends in misery or catastrophe
Some of my days and nights overlap
And I forget which was which
But none of it matters, well, or at least it won't matter when I'm gone

I tried to be as good as I possibly could
But in the end it does not matter
Because I failed
No matter what
I will always fail
Failure, failure, failure
And time and time again, failure

You know? I actually, and actively, tried
To keep myself above the water
And yet, I have failed at it every single time
I tried, I failed, like the rest

© Hemming Howard Harrison