I'm in tensions full of confusion,
Blinded with conflict peers of no conclusion,
I know i gat solutions but still no convention,
A thousand times of repetitions of my new reputation,
But my weak nerves fight hard living me with no solution,
I feel my soul is flying away to another ruthless organization,
I really need an Angel either of light or dark to take away the pain,
But now am in the middle of two paths to my destination,

The first path leads me to; anxiety, stress, depression, mental disorder and fear,
The second path leads me to; focus, determination, hope and desire,
Ask me why? I haven't chosen or sacrificed to any and I will answer why?
Of course I know my paths as my Holly name,
But breaking into one path has been a nightmare and shame to myself,
I have tried to nail the shield from all corners but all in vain,
Now pretense has been my living room from shame of mentors,
To play hide and seek from the truth of fear and desire,

Indeed am the breed of king Solomon the father & mother of vanity,
Since no life no style I haven't filled my files in a moment,
But regrets have been my first followers from the ground to my sleeping bed & back to the ground entirely,
Why me not you? Or Why you not me?
The two questions remind me the day of wisdom,
When the First wise spoke and it was done,
With different perspectives of life & nature,
Where I will be a man and you will be a woman,
Ask me Why Again?????????
And the Wise One will fill your emptiness.
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