I'm looking at these pictures
I'm looking at these familiar faces that brings memories of a life time
I'm here wondering why does it feel so frustrating trying to remember it all
Why is pain and happiness interwined with these memories
If these pictures didn't exist these bonds I had formed would be long forgotten
Why do I need pictures to remind me of the shoulders I used to lean on
The bonds I locked in my heart with laughter and tears
How did I lose the key ?!

I'm here wondering how did everything fade away in my head
A bad phase erased a lifetime of memories
My heart feels burdened with pain as I realize I can't find what I have lost


I'm looking at these pictures being surrounded by the faces I used to hold close to my heart
My soul was at the worst but I was definitely happy in this moment
These moments!
I want it all
I want to be happy again
I was holding on to these moments for so long I didn't realize I had let go a long time ago
Can my past be Present ?!
Future is so unsure in this moment
I want to be happy again
Reality hit me hard as I realized my past would always be filled with questions
My past would always be memories filled with questions
Why ?
When ?
How ?
And I have lost the key to find these answers.
It's gone ..
© ~lisa xoxo