he's just a boy, i tell myself
but how can just a boy make me so happy like i am?
i like him, maybe too much for my own liking.
but i really can't help it.
i hate when he puts himself down, or when he says he's not pretty.
thats a huge lie.
i love his eyes and his laugh.
also the way he talks.

but im scared.
im scared to confess because he's my bestfriend,
and im scared to loose him.
he's special to me.
even though i met him on the internet he still makes my heart laugh.
i have no idea how.
but when im on a call with him everything seems fine.

but what if he doesnt likes me back?
i know, he's just a boy, and thats how life goes.
but i want to be the girl that makes him happy and the girl that makes him laugh.

and i know he's not just a boy, because just a boy wouldn't make feel like this.
so happy,
full of life,
and full of love.