I don't know why this night is so long
Trying to collect myself and be strong
Even scared to close my eyes
As warm water droplets through it is melting my heart which is colder than ice
I believe I have an emotional outburst
Or just confused whom to whom not to trust
Have I lost all my calm
Am I late to listen to the alarm
As past of mine is mocking me
Making me believe future would be it what it wants to see
I am scared to close my eyes anymore
As all the nightmares drive me crazy from the core
With a smile I believe these are the punishment for all my sins
Converting everything into losses even my wins
As even I have broken a lot of trust
Turning others emotions into dust
So I know it's all mine and I shouldn't be sad
What to do I am human these emotions turn me mad
I know eventually I will lose myself to it
I just pray it's at once and not bit by bit
As this slow suffering is painful I bet
I can pray for mercy with sudden death
✌️raj
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