We’re all preparing for death,
setting aside payments, making sensible decisions
throughout life,
but not everyone’s really
intending to die.

I’m dissolving in the film
on the rim
of wine
you’re drinking.

You tell me about your day -
about divorced dads and business men and widows -
a financial consultant,
with gripping stories and huge debts and confusing wills
to spill
from the lucky papers that your fingers touch
and flutter through,

before you confidently make their decisions.

Sensible decisions,
that I cannot make.
(Without You)

And I just pray to never be that widow
timidly knocking on someone else’s door,
a financial consultant too.

© lilac_of_hope
Inspired by ‘Here is The Beehive’ - Sarah Crossan