You were so good to be true I knew eventually I would fuck up an loose you.
I wish I could take back these moments where I stepped out cause I thought you did too.
I am so sorry but I know you don’t care, you don’t understand how many times ,
I’ve hurt myself because,
I let the words of others lies,
look like the truth in my eyes.
I didn’t do it intentionally,
when I felt my heart hit the floor
I’ve become so insecure,
I feel like my brain,
was I’m a swirl going round & round
I’m looking at everything spin around me.
heart racing, face became flushed, heat over took my body.
my body shaking from an adrenaline rush,
I feel like they were coming for me an the best thing I was to do was just get lost,
feeling not wanted by the person you love the most in this world. I could’ve killed myself when reality hit I’m just a fuck up.
I truly hate that shit.
I’ve never been so fucked up before.
I really just wanted to stop running but I couldn’t cause admitting I was fuckin wrong was kinda the problem I’m just a fuck up. communication skills they suck im trying so hard to not give up.
but along with this bad day he’ll bad I can’t imagine how much hurt I brought to you. I know before you cleaned out your closet an I shall 2.
because I don’t wanna be the fuck up Anymorean I don’t want to feel alone or do bad things to hurt you anymore.
please forgive me cause this comes from the heart I just want a fresh start. please forgive an don’t leave me . I need you more then you’ll ever need me.